Diary Entry - 3 May 2018

It's about 2 AM of 4 May 2018. That means I haven't slept for just 21hours... My sleeplessness is not my worry but what kept me awake is...

There was this kid in the neighborhood. A little young, seemingly in bad company, had no respect for people depending on financial status... As in this is how I have "judged" him! And what I get to hear today is he is no more... A news that delivered to me very plainly. Fighting my own rounds of depression this news has put me in a state of shock. I neither knew the kid really well nor we were connected on Facebook. He was just a part of my past... I was adolescent when he was a kid who ran around the blocks. That's kind of memory I have... Or the one where we discussed about who should park the car where etc.

But something inside me moved. I don't know what, how and why... but it did.

I dare say Rest in Peace! I can see a family ripped apart, I can see a father fighting his tears all alone, I can see a house waiting for its owner - A house that was furnished to offer every possible luxury.

His Facebook indicates that he was probably depressed, lonely maybe. Or perhaps a break up or two. But then again these are all that I see and feel. Truth could be something else out there... And I just don't know how wrong I am. Well something has moved inside...

A guy so young should have been full of life...And that life is over...

Well death is natural, I am just having difficulty accepting it!!!

(I hope nobody reads this, even if they do, they don't judge me.)

Riki - The dog and Me -the Human

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Me and this world - a tête-à-tête

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